Clues

1. Starting to put change in the cups again

2. Cleaning up the first cat's vomit in the middle of the night so my landlady doesn't have to

3. Rushing out of the room, pillow in hand, to try to comfort the second cat in its epileptic spasms

4. Faltering, severely

5. Determination anyway

6. Funny things

7. Perspective from benevolent strangers

8. Having reason to feel terrible about forgetting to call my mom on her birthday

9. Hope

10. Hope